Gulp...22?

I woke up in the morning...there were some messages and calls...friends wishing me a happy birthday...so there I was,half awake to the first day of my 23rd year here...thinking, where have I come, where am I going?
Invariably, birthdays are times for a reality check....what the heck did i do in 22 years?
Gawddd! I've been on the face of this planet for over 2 decades now!
Suddenly, 22 seems like a huge number...I've left teenage 3 years behind!
I can go on about how I freaked out at that thought,but the bottomline remains that its not a very nice realisation...that I'm growing older! [Now one may console me by saying that its not like my hair will turn grey in a few months...but yet!]
'Acceptance, Deepthi, acceptance is the first step' ...I tell myself...'Grow up!'
So, where do I see myself in 10 years?...oops too far...how about 5 years?...yikes, still too far...how about 2 years?...OMG! THIS IS SCARY!!!
What have I done so long? ...(shrieks really loud and pulls her hair apart, gets distracted for a minute thinking of whether she needs a haircut, but very soon gets back to pulling hair apart)
I really like philosophising (Ya...I admit,shucks, I do like that darn activity!...boring,as it may seem to the reader...but i really seem to be liking this thing!).....so?
Where do I take life from here? (Prof. Basu's sarcastic comments about my diligence with studies reverberate in my ears and I am also reminded of the shameful fact that I'm supposed to have read 3 books for my project by now...but I seem to have read only their prefaces!)
All this aside...am I exaggerating things? I probably am...atleast a bit!
Well...ya, I dont know where life will take me...but I atleast know where I want to take it! So, all I have to do is TAKE IT THERE!
All I need to do is stop shrieking and pulling my hair apart (she notices a split end and shrieks even louder...if not anything, atleast one thing is clear about life...she WILL get a haircut tomorrow!)